it's silent at first.
the whispers in my head take a deep breath,
all at once, altogether, all... waiting
it's scentless at first.
my nose aches for fresh air,
grass and trees and wood...
it's still at first.
my eyes forget they're open and try to open again,
and then they close... waiting
my heartbeat picks up the pace, pounding in my ears,
suddenly so loud I want to cover them,
but the sound comes from within
I can't block it out.
my hair pits feet stretch, filling my nose,
suddenly so cloying I want to bathe,
but the smell is merely me
I can't wash it away.
my dots return, like pixel displays swimming across my eyes,
clenching my lids only adds color, greens blues reds,
but the sight is part of my vision
I can't unsee.
is not so
"if you leave someone alone in the dark long enough, they lose themselves" - anonymous