Friday, July 27, 2018

Circles

Mature Content
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"Okay, Romance. Now that you've brought us all here, why don't you tell us what this is about."

"Please don't call me that."

"Why not? It makes things easier." Philosophy looked around the circle. Mostly women and a couple of men nodded in agreement. They were more somber than an AA meeting; they knew what was coming.

"Fine. Whatever. Look, I want to take on more roles."

"You want him all to yourself, you mean."

"So what if I do? I think he might be the one."

Philosopy shook her head, glancing at Politics. "Why is it always Romance that falls in love, huh? Why can't it be one of us for a change?"

"You know why, sugar," Politics replied. "We're not here for our hearts."

"What do you two mean, 'always Romance'?"

"Hon, we've seen it before. You're not the first Ro' to grace our circle. I'm sorry dear, but you're not gonna last too much longer," Politics replied.

Philosophy scooted her chair forward, out of the circle and more up in Romance's face. "Do you now what he thinks about traditional marriage?"

"He told me he wants to settle down!"

"Unless he said it was with you and you alone, it's not what you think. Listen to me, if no-one else. He doesn't believe in unending, death do us part commitment. He wants a term marriage."

"There's no such thing!"

"I know that, he knows that, we all here know that. Except possibly you. You don't seem to know. Do you remember what we told you when we brought you here the first time?"

Romance shook her head.

"We told you he doesn't believe that one person can satisfy all his relationship needs. He used to hope there was one person, but years of searching led him to conclude the truth. That truth is that we're all too complex to match perfectly with one person. So we are faced with a choice: settle for less or defy tradition."

Cuddle crossed the circle and wrapped his arms around Romance. "I know you've fallen in love. We've all fallen in love, and not just with him, but with other people too. He didn't make us choose to call each other these names, we chose. We chose to remind us our roles in his life, and his role in each of ours."

Sub walked up to Romance and knelt at her feet. "Yes, he does want to settle down. But not to raise a family. He wants to raise a community of people to share the openness and the love we all feel. For him, for each other, and for our own circles as well. We can show you a greater love together, than you feel for him alone."

Exhib crawled into her lap, stroking her face. "He doesn't want to hold any of us back, not even himself. He wants the freedom of choice for us too. Will you stay?"

Romance shot to her feet, overwhelmed and not a little claustrophobic. "I... I need to think about it. I need some fresh air." She strode from the room.

"Since we're all here, who wants to 'pile," Cuddle asked hopefully.

Wit chuckled, Dom groaned, and Politics and Philosophy shook their heads, as Sub and Exhib jumped up in excitement. Voy offerred to go grab some bedding and asked if anyone would help her. Groom took her arm, and he whispered something in her ear as they wandered out.

"What do you think, Pol?"

"I think I could use some quality cuddle time too, if you're interested Phil."

She punched his arm. "You know what I mean."

"Ro'? If she's not the one, he's going to have to do without for a little while. Candidates for him are running a little thin."

"Sad could step in."

"That's a conversation you need to have with Sad, not with me. Speaking of which..."

"No, I didn't see them. They skipped out on us again. If I didn't think they'd enjoy it, I'd say our little non-binary sadist deserved a beating for all the meetings they've missed."

The pile started growing rowdy, as they saw Voy and Groom wrestle a worn mattress into the room.

"You want to go somewhere a little quieter, Phil?"

"You read my mind, Pol. I don't think Ro' is coming back tonight."

"As long as she comes back eventually, I think we'll be alright."

Friday, July 13, 2018

resist

Mature Content
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it starts in my legs
my thighs tingling with locationless feeling

it grows slowly
night after night after night
in intensity, in coverage

blissful tingling
amazing feeling
night after night after night

it affects my sleep
it affects my mood
it affects my mind
night after night after night

until I can't
resist